I started reading Tarot and Oracle cards five years ago, but fell out of the habit when my adventures with homelessness started. A couple weeks ago I decided to get back into the habit and started doing daily readings for myself, though honestly I had a hard time coming up with questions to ask. Today, in a blur of thoughts and frustrations, I felt inspired to ask the cards, “What is my life purpose? What should I be putting my energy into?”
And the answer? Be yourself, unafraid and uninhibited.
It sounds easy, but it’s not.
When I was little, my most favoritest color ever was bright golden yellow. Then one day, someone told me that yellow was the color of cowards, and I was so embarrassed of myself that I immediately changed my favorite color — boldly standing up for myself and what I like is not something that has come naturally for me. In fact, I’ve spent most of my life trying to water myself down so that I appear more like everyone else.
So, I guess that the Universe has spoken, and I know what I need to do now. The idea terrifies me, and yet I find it to be exciting and liberating as well. I have been given permission to be myself without fear!
And yellow IS a very beautiful color!